by Marin Angel Lazarov
As a rule, people look for their other half among those who are settled. It's like, I have enough problems in my life, now I want everything to be smooth... But in reality, that's not how it works. Or it does, when such 'settled' and 'suitable' people come together, and again everything goes differently than planned...
The main thing is to figure yourself out, understand what you live for and what you expect from life, and, most importantly, that others expect something from you too. Maybe not anyone in particular, but happiness doesn't come one-sided.
Perhaps you need to be able to give. But give in such a way that you don't regret it, not for your own benefit, but so that it becomes... well, a need of the soul, perhaps... to give sincerely, without regret...
Many people understand this, but not everyone succeeds. I think you have to work on yourself constantly.
After all, to love is to give, simply, without asking for anything in return.
Sometimes your problems get so twisted that you forget everything, who you are, why you are here, everything is bad, depression... It's hard to get out of it, and you can't, even though you think you're trying, making an effort.
What effort? Why? What problems are you solving, for what, what are you looking for, are you ready or not... you don't know yourself.
And then, at that moment, you accidentally (or rather, not accidentally... because it was unconsciously living in your subconscious and waiting for its moment) meet a person who somehow gently, subtly and quietly makes you think about all this... And gradually brings you back to yourself.
After all, you can't lie to yourself, you can't run away from yourself, and the most difficult thing is to live in harmony with yourself so that you don't feel painfully ashamed of yourself.
And if this person is able to feel and understand so subtly... then everything inside you is turned upside down...
And then, only then, do you understand WHAT has changed and WHY.
And then it's no longer just a person for you, it's... the universe... That you love this person, that it's forever, that you cherish them, that any mistakes become trivial, because you understand and feel this person the way they know how to feel, and that makes them all the more precious...
And then it's no longer just a person for you, it's... the universe...